is this a 'normal' response?

Started by caroline, August 01, 2016, 10:19:16 PM

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caroline

So i had had a first official assessment for ptsd/cptsd on Friday. It went really well, got a referral to specialist treatment place for further assessment/treatment (hopefully).  I was actually feeling pretty happy and like for once i was taken seriously. Posted on here later that evening and was still feeling good.

That night, a few hours later I crashed.  Binge/purged (not used bulimia for about 5 or 6 years, so very disappointed about that).   Was really close to self- harming.  Felt kinda out of control and just, not safe.  I did get in touch with two friends ( a couple) who both took turns talking to me on the phone till i stopped shaking and felt able to go to bed.  My partner was already asleep as we were going away the next morning and he was driving.  I was then really slow about getting ready and just felt overwhelmed about seeing all his family etc.  Then felt guilty for not being my normal organised self and making us late etc. 

Ok, this is just a ramble.  We got home today after a nice time - but worried i might crash like that when on my own this week, my partner is back at work tomorrow and I am off sick just now.

SDorry, this got a bit confused and jumbled, gonna post anyway, sorry x

radical

Yes.  Completely normal.
I'm sorry you experienced this, but it often goes with the territory.
Be really kind to yourself.

caroline

Thanks for the reply Radical. 

I thought it might well be part of it all, but since I try to not talk about any of this stuff usually, I'm not sure and just wanted to check in with others who might know!  Been a long time since doing any kind of therapy type stuff.  I'm trying to plan things for the next week to make sure i see someone every day etc, but not do too much as well. 

Thanks again!

Three Roses

Agree, completely normal, and I don't think you were rambly at all ;)