Trigger warning - death anxiety

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89abc123

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Trigger warning - death anxiety
« on: August 05, 2016, 04:55:55 AM »
So it's a bit of a morbid post...

But the healthier I am getting the more I am fearing my own death. Over the past week I can't stop thinking that my life has no end. I don't know how to stop these thoughts because there is nothing I can do to stop death happening and I'm terrified.

The good news is that the thing that triggered this anxiety is that for the first time since I was about 10 I am actually feeling wonderful. I realised how much I love life and living. But I'm fearful that time is running out. I just don't want life to end because I really want to and love being here.

Has anyone experienced anxiety over this as a result of their recovery?

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Re: Trigger warning - death anxiety
« Reply #1 on: August 05, 2016, 02:17:26 PM »
Glad you're feeling good! I haven't had that reaction but it kind of makes sense - you're in unfamiliar territory, it sounds like. Anxiety inducing unfamiliarity. Sorry I couldn't be more help.  :P

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Re: Trigger warning - death anxiety
« Reply #2 on: August 05, 2016, 05:43:20 PM »
Hi 89 - makes perfect sense to me that you would fear losing all the wonderful things life is beginning to offer you.  In a sense you have more to lose now that you can feel again than when you were mostly numb/experiencing the negative and distressing symptoms of CPTSD. 

It may be that the fear will fade as you become more used to feeling good.   :yes: