Hey radical,
Im wondering, if don't mind explaining, what you mean, when you say that the learning is always invisible to you?
Do you mean..it just sort of..happens ..then Oh! your at the finish line and you have learned?
Shouldn't there be some understanding of the parts of the process of coming to know, beyond just the feelings?
The course might go on to talk about learning practically...i know that depending on what they are learning...each thing you learn might involve entirely different steps than something else- partial steps i mean.
Maybe everyone has unconscious feelings added to conscious ones when learning...but maybe the unconscious ones for us could be trauma that is not processed?
I think that if people are ...healthy...if that exists...i think they should perhaps be in touch with their feelings at least and allow the feelings and to know that they are ok.
I don't seem to trust that I will get there, so I feel a huge desire to know every physical step on the way, rather than it being some kind of mysterious miracle that I can't control.
I understand this radical. I think that, for us, (depending on the person)...not being in control is hard.

Im wondering if lack of trust, may mirror caregiver lack of faith..which in turn, may provide us with lack of self belief and lack of belief in your ability.
Don't know if i should put this...or if anyone is interested...
I heard that...fear of faliour...
(and i don't know if its true or from a good source)- but anyway-
People who are afraid to fail, usually self sabotage and give up-
even if they are almost to the end of their learning / achievement-
becasue it feels better to say, i *could* have succeeded, -
i just didnt continue or-
I would have failed- rather than- following through to the end- and possibly failing-
because that feels more scary than the
possibility that they could fail.
I know that for me, there is no real enjoyment i guess out of learning...ie. my new thing is to teach myself to knit...bit i know i will find it hard, and that i will most likely feel defeated and powerless.
This may be the same for you and the other guys...or not...but i know there wasnt much patience given to me when i was learning- lots of anger and shaming...
Hense- im not patient with myself...and its hard to feel proud of the steps of accomplishment
I was shocked to read what i read on the course. But i never imagined that questions would come up...and that others would take so much interest. This is great.