if you can label it abuse when envisioning another kid going thru what you went thru, it's abuse to you, too. none of us are any better or worse as kids, we're just kids! we think like kids, act like kids, screw up like kids, reason like kids, and have the logic of kids. we're not 'little adults' in any way, shape, or form.
riverstar, i've never been formally diagnosed with c-ptsd, but when i read about the symptoms, and they fit me so well, i diagnosed myself, found this forum, and discovered so many others who are going thru the same struggles as me that it has left no doubt in me of my diagnosis. this forum has validated me, and i'm truly grateful for that. the diagnosis of c-ptsd has to come from a professional who is willing to look outside the box of the dsm, but the dsm is the law when it comes to a diagnosis for the insurance companies (at least in the u.s.). sometimes, in order for insurance to pay for our therapy, we might have to accept a different 'diagnosis'. there's so much ignorance out there, so much bureaucracy going on that it can be difficult to navigate the waters. i do hope you find someone who is aware of c-ptsd, and is willing to go the extra mile to help you get what you need.