New to CPTSD

[Merocor]

Hi all!

Not sure where to begin or what to say.... I haven't been diagnosed with PTSD or any certain disorder, but I just began therapy and they put me through a battery of test questions. after about an hour, one flag that popped up was PTSD, so we talked a few minutes about that.

Since then, I've researched more and discovered CPTSD, which explains everything that has been happening in my life. I've since learned to cope with many of the struggles, and now I feel I have a long way to back-pedal and rightly adjust my mind. I've always felt distant from others, never many friends, ashamed of near everything I do, and very fearful of spending any time with my mother, the source of my emotional abuse. I also suffer from anxiety and have been seen as a workaholic my entire life.

I have cut ties with her since, and haven't spoken to her for a few years now, though she still tries to get in touch. the attempts are getting less and less frequent, last one being 6 months now.

I hope to spend some time with you all and learn more about this.   

[Jdog]

Hello, and welcome to our site!  It does take time to adjust to the awareness that one's anxiety and overall feelings of not being quite "right" have an actual label.  It sounds like you are off to a good start in your healing journey, and I hope that you enjoy connecting with the great folks here.

[Kizzie]

Welcome Merocor    It does sound like you are off to a good start in healing as JDog wrote so kudos     I hope you will find some good support and lots of info here that helps you on that journey.