Allie's Archives: a recovery journal

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Hope67

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Re: Allie's Archives: a recovery journal
« Reply #570 on: August 07, 2020, 12:57:42 PM »
Hi Alliematt,
Wishing your husband the best, and hope he remains free from covid.
Hope you are ok.
 :hug:
Hope  :)

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« Reply #571 on: August 09, 2020, 05:30:05 PM »
My husbandís been self-isolating for a week.  No one is ill. 

Emotionally, Iím not doing terribly well.  Iím sorry I canít seem to get any better. :-(

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« Reply #572 on: August 11, 2020, 12:10:26 AM »
For some weird reason, I went to a very dark place last night.  I'm still not sure why.  I don't know if something went haywire in my brain chemistry or WHAT? 

I do feel better today and I think an early bedtime may be best for me. :-)

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« Reply #573 on: August 26, 2020, 12:36:13 PM »
Well, already it's been a day!

My son's back in school and he called me saying he'd worn the wrong shoes.  The program he's in is working in an elementary school this year and they are required to wear non-skid shoes.  So I needed to go down and deliver them.
This was AFTER I realized that I couldn't make coffee because the lid to the decanter, which I need to put on top of the decanter in order for the coffee maker to work correctly, was in the dishwasher . . .which was running.
And events are just washing over me.  I am tired and burned out.

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Re: Allie's Archives: a recovery journal
« Reply #574 on: August 31, 2020, 02:59:53 PM »
Hi Allie,
Sending you a supportive hug, if you'd like to have one of those  :hug:
Hope  :)

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Re: Allie's Archives: a recovery journal
« Reply #575 on: September 02, 2020, 05:58:31 PM »
Thanks.  Iím crawling out of the black hole!

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Re: Allie's Archives: a recovery journal
« Reply #576 on: September 02, 2020, 10:34:59 PM »
glad to hear you're heading toward the light once again, allie.  love and hugs :hug:

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« Reply #577 on: September 06, 2020, 08:39:12 AM »
Hi Allie,
Glad you're heading towards the light.   :hug:
Hope  :)

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Re: Allie's Archives: a recovery journal
« Reply #578 on: September 07, 2020, 08:32:44 PM »
I have been taking advantage of the Labor Day holiday and . . . Laboring. :-). To be honest, between COVID and the election, Iím mentally exhausted and I figured doing some decluttering and organizing would help.  Plus I follow several YouTube channels that are actually about cleaning.  Thatís good motivation.

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« Reply #579 on: October 09, 2020, 11:03:45 AM »
Boy oh boy oh boy oh boy oh boy.

I made a very bad assumption and I am very glad it was corrected quickly.

My sister texted me this morning saying she was a grandmother and sent me a picture of the baby. 

I was very happy for her but rather upset that no one had told me her daughter was pregnant.

Well, after I commented on her daughter having a C-Section, she said, it's not my daughter's.  It's my stepson's.

I keep forgetting that my sister has a stepson and stepdaughter from her current marriage.

And here I was going on in my thoughts about, you deliberately cut me out of the loop, how dare you, why did you do that . . . Only to learn that none of that was true. 

Here's what I will give myself credit for:
1.  I journaled my feelings.
2.  I decided to just tell my sister congratulations instead of reaming into her immediately.
3.  I did vent to my husband only and not on social media.
4.  I admitted I was wrong.

It is so easy at times to project things onto other people and assume that some things are true when they are not.  I'm glad I was wrong here.

Something that has also been helping me is the supplement gaba.  My son's naturopath recommended that as a way to calm anxiety.  I am still taking my prescription meds as well.

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« Reply #580 on: October 09, 2020, 06:07:19 PM »
Here's what I will give myself credit for:
1.  I journaled my feelings.
2.  I decided to just tell my sister congratulations instead of reaming into her immediately.
3.  I did vent to my husband only and not on social media.
4.  I admitted I was wrong.

 :cheer: :applause: