I am afraid I'm not welcome here...

[PrinceOfDarkness]

I'm glad to have found this website and that there's a message board here. However, I'm afraid of saying something wrong and getting in trouble for it so I've been trying to post but then deciding against it. I hope I'm not saying anything wrong here...

I survived extreme abuse at the hand of my parents, brother, and others in my childhood, adolescence, and early adulthood. I was also bullied a lot from kindergarten through college for various things. I've been working with a trauma specialist for about a year and a half now. She says I have C-PTSD and some serious depersonalization/derealization problems. A traumatic event that hurt me worse than I'd ever been hurt before occurred 14 months ago, and ever since then I've been really struggling. I've been trying very hard to feel better and fix things, working with my therapist and doing a ton of research, but my mind feels completely torn apart. I hope that it's okay for me to join the community here.

[mourningdove]

Welcome, PrinceofDarkness! 

You haven't said anything wrong at all. It's very normal to feel scared of doing something wrong, though. I get that a lot. I also get derealization and depersonalization a lot, so I relate to that as well. I'm sorry that you have been through so much.

I hope that you will feel welcome here and find this site useful. 

[sanmagic7]

hey, princeofdarkness,  i didn't see anything wrong with what you wrote, nor inappropriate, and you are as welcome here as anyone else.  there have been several times i've posted something and was nervous about how it would be received.  what i've discovered is a lovely group of caring, kind, generous and accepting people who have helped me immensely because of their supportive comments and feedback.  i hope you find the same.  glad you're here. 

[PrinceOfDarkness]

Thank you for the kind words.

[Kizzie]

Hi Prince, just saying hi and welcome too 

[Three Roses]

Hello, welcome!

[Boatsetsailrose]

Hi prince of darkness
Fear of failure, not being good enough and getting into trouble are some of my issues too ...
I am starting to see the untruth in these things and that they are not based in present reality ..
I've not found any judgement or problems being here at all .. the community here have been wonderfully supportive to me and I hope I do the same for others

I am glad you are here

[PrinceOfDarkness]

Thank you all again for the kind words. I'm not used to people being kind to me and my past experiences make me wary of it but thank you all the same.