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[Dee]

I don't know where to post this, so I'm going here.  I love this forum.  I believe that it takes people to post and people to respond.  I try to respond as much as I can to other people, it is important.  Right now, I am not able to do that.  I have a lot going on and I just can't seem to give the support that I want to.  I can't even read a lot of the posts because it is too triggering.  So I want everyone know that I am lurking and I care.  When I get things taken care of I hope to be as active as I once was.  I support you all even if I am not posting replies.  I feel bad, but I think you all can understand.

[mourningdove]

I too have felt like that many times, but I think that we all participate as we are able, and we all probably have times when it is difficult for us to be as supportive as we would like. I'm glad that you are here, Dee, regardless of how much you are able to post.

[radical]

Hi Dee, I'm just really glad you are around!

It would be overwhelming  (and probably self-destructive) to feel responsible for hearing and responding to all the distress and pain here.  It can be overwhelming at times to read or to respond to any at all.  I know it is for me.  Sometimes we need to be cared for, or to be apart to care for ourselves and that is more than okay, it's healthy.

We do what we can according to our own needs limits and that's enough.  I like being able to trust the community as a whole to be listening and responding.  Just feeling "responsible" is enough for me to take a step back and a take a reality check.

I'm glad you are doing what you need to do and I'm always glad you're here, whatever place you're at.

[Three Roses]

Happy to hear you're taking care of yourself! That's a good thing!

[Wife#2]

Dee, you said what I wasn't able. I feel bad about it, so push myself - maybe harder than I should.

Take your time, do your thing. We'll still be here - maybe lurking also - and at least someone will be here to help (thank you moderators!) others in our absence and us when we're ready again.

Please take care of yourself, Dee. We will be thinking of you while you're post-free.

[sanmagic7]

dee, i've felt like this more than once.  i think it comes with the territory.  there has been so much pain, too much suffering.  some days i can't deal with anyone else at all. 

i'm glad you're doing what you need to do for you.  atta girl!  big hug, dee.