For those traumatised in FOO

[Eyessoblue]

Hi I just wondered if you're from the uk? I was also told it could be a six month wait but I got seen at 3 months, so hoping maybe you would get seen sooner too, I think sometimes they give you the worse case scenario so you don't get your hopes up too quickly.

[Candid]

Three Roses and Blueberry, thank you for your good wishes. I've woken this morning feeling similarly upbeat. H and I had a good talk yesterday afternoon, away from 'home' (in a pub actually) and he really does get it. It helps a lot to have someone batting my corner.

Hi I just wondered if you're from the uk?

Yep.

I was also told it could be a six month wait but I got seen at 3 months, so hoping maybe you would get seen sooner too, I think sometimes they give you the worse case scenario so you don't get your hopes up too quickly.

Ah. Good to know.

Thing is, I'm no longer holding on. Four weeks was doable, and when it was then doubled I fell apart. I truly felt at the time as though my life depended on it. But a lot can happen in six months, or even three, and even lazy old me can't lie about holding my breath that long.

Somehow the duration of the wait and the uncertainty has changed my outlook. It's on me, now, and I'm sure I've come through tougher times.

How long do they give you? Six weekly sessions? Ten?

[sanmagic7]

what a wonderful attitude to take on, candid!  i'm gonna pinch me off a bit of that.  it sounds fabulous - accept myself as i am instead of always being focused on the beast who wants to run my life.  well, that places things in a very different perspective, doesn't it!  great insight!  thanks!  big hug!

[Fen Starshimmer]

Now I've been told it's at least six months, a different reaction and one I don't understand. I've got this forum and I know some things have shifted for me since I've been posting here. I'm no longer looking to 'recover' from CPTSD. I am as I am. It doesn't matter what gets back to my FOO or who says what to whom about me: I accept the whole of me as I am now.

For some reason I feel ready to take on the world. And I haven't even been drinking. I hope it lasts!

Hey, good for you Candid! Yay    Sounds like you've had an epiphany... We ARE powerful, with or without CPTSD. And besides, that's just a label; we are all unique like... snowflakes and trees.

I thought your experience of the health services sounded like the UK. (I'm here too.) Unreliable in my experience, and very limited.

energy healing sounds great to me, fen.  my daughter can detect energy, but has not explored the whole arena enough to do any healing type stuff.  when i was with her, she did a scan on me, told me the left side of my body was hot, especially my left hip area, and the right side was cold, while i had blank spots here and there around my body.  also, very hot/active in the area of my sacral chakra.  i don't know what all that means, but i want to begin looking into it more.

Sanmagic - Your daughter sounds gifted in this area... how wonderful, maybe she can develop her knowledge, go on a course? Hope you can find someone who can give you a full assessment. I am sure you will if you keep looking. The sacral energy centre was one of my most out of balance and blocked, needing lots of work due to all the shocks and sexual abuse. It goes some way to explaining why I felt so numb, struggled to experience feelings and emotions, joy and pleasure, creativity, intimacy and healthy boundaries in relationships. When it's blocked, emotions are unexpressed and life can be become a lonely, dismal place, so they say. 

Sanmagic, that is interesting what you write about energy movements disturbing your own energy. I haven't tried tai chi, but qi gong exhausts me so much! So much that I can hardly stay standing, I want to sit down and just do the upper body movements. And I yawn almost non-stop. I have been told in the past by therapists that it's obviously good for me since my body reacts so strongly, especially with the yawning because that seems cleansing for my soul, but I have to wonder if it's really that beneficial.

Therapists have told me the same thing about yawning. It's good because you're releasing heavy energy, usually negative energy of some sort. I do it a lot when I'm meditating. I have also been told to rest and take it easy after major energy clearing or energy balancing work as it can take some time to readjust. Hope the qi gong gets easier and you start to feel some benefits.