a bit of confusion.... TW

[sparki101]

Thank you for taking time to read this. I don't know who the baddies and the goodies are anymore. I have been raised in a church environment in which things were always sin/pure, light/dark...Church family were Christs representation...people outside of hearing the message of God were dangerous and not to be trusted. Within the four walls that was the safety.....now I am having visions of violence within my christian family home, a family that was looked up to as an example. I don't know how to deal with the darkness being where I was told there was light...and more emotional support coming from the people who I'm not supposed to get close to. Does anyone understand?

[joyful]

Hi sparki
I understand this:

violence within my christian family home, a family that was looked up to as an example.

So so well. Sorry I wish I could write more, but not feeling my best right now. Just wanted to let you know that I absolutely understand an outwardly "good" Christian family that is so just wrong when no one can see.