My sister a decade older is a psychopath

[Babysister]

Hello.
I was abused by my adult sister ten years my senior beginning when i was two from memory but probably earlier. She was so psychologically violent that to this day I have been unable to trust anyone. I suffer insomnia and deep grief and anger. My mother told me at 4 she was "done"  raising her kids so she basically abandoned me except when my adult sibling abuser and psychopath engaged her in abusing me too. The time my mother said that was the psychopath's my sisters worst abuse my mother could no longer deal with the monster that is my sister and do she certainly couldn't take care of a baby.
My father worked until 8pm and drank because of the dysfunctional abuse by my adult sibling abuser and mother screaming for her to behave.
My sister was born without empathy so she faked it for certain non-nuclear family members and in front of those outside the family to get attention. She played  the "good grandaughter and big sister" in front of her friends and my grandpatents and behind closed doors she did evil things to me. My father often called her off of me when she pretended to "tickle" me and i was screaming in pain.
She used to say the cruelest things to me and then tell me she was being nice to me-Crazy!

The emotional abuse was constant and insidious. There were constant comments to degrade me passive aggressive cruel things she said taunting me constantly and making fun of me while i was developing and she was fifteen to 27 years old!!! 
The reality is I was a pretty and very giving little girl whom my father favored and I was noticed and beloved by everyone in the neighborhood, her and my middle sister's friends, neighbors and she hated me for this.
She systematically took the time to denigrate me with viciousness in the form of character assasination when i was FIVE until 18 when i expelked her from my life. Then she did it behind my back.  every chance she could and every single day after school as I was a latchkey child. She called me an ugly kid, she said kids who are cute when they are little aren't when they grow up. I had a cute little nose and she relentlessly made fun of it to the point that i got body dysmorphia. She hit me every day after school terrorizing me and scaring me so that i was hypervigilent making sure no one else at school would hurt me and degrade me like she did.
She told me at five that I was responsible for my grandfather's heart attack how was i to believe anything else? My mother abandoned me she took advantage being a female psychopath of my defenslessness and love for her as my big sister.
She told me from the time I was three that I was "the bad seed".
This is what psychopaths do;they project themselves and their sick twisted minds and behavior onto the victims they torture.
Part of me believed her because "why would my big sister who tells me how good she is lie to me?" i was accepted to a modelling agency at five and they told her "don't call us we'll call you."
This is the first time I have reached out to a forum and told the truth about my psychopathic adult sister abuser.  She is a psychopath and she harmed me in every way.
I stopped eating at six and did not grow physically for a period of ten years when we finally moved away and i got away from her. I built self-esteem all the boys noticed me.
She violated all of my boundaries making fun of all my thoughts and interests and ideas. She said only weird boys liked me. She would say "(cousin's name) moon (cousin's name) stars"  about my overweight and culturally non-attractive cousin three years younger then she would say my name and say "eww. " she consistently criticized my appearance every character trait and behavior mocking me viciously and laughing at me. SHE WAS AN ADULT AND I WAS A YOUNG CHILD.  It was a nightmare froM which i still suffer insomnia and the inability until now hopefully  to trust anyone. She was scathingly cruel and used the psychology she learned at school to harm me with her words even worse labeling  with all of these now ridiculous things i never had but she made me such a nervous child i bit my nails ground my teeth and had migraines and nosebleeds from the chronic stress of having to hide what was being done to me by an adult when i was a little girl.
One day though there appeared to be a glimmer of hope. She locked me in a room again and wouldn't open the door she had slammed  so tightly. She had to call the superintendent to come up and open it  i was friends with his son and daughter and when he came up he found hand prints and nail marks where my sister had grabbed me and he screamed at her saying"you are an adult woman she is your baby sister are you crazy?! What are you doing?!! "what is the matter with you if you Ever do this again I am calling your father!"  he took me downstairs to be with his family. I was shaking from fear. A few times i peed in my pants because of her psychopathic abuse.
She told me i was the worst and did not deserve to live.
She repeatedly beat me and degrade me treating me like a slave from age five until 14 and told me she would kill me if i told our parents.
She enlisted other family members through her mask in her abuse-two adult uncles.
Now i know thay all the anger i feel towards politicos who abuse their power and those who pretend to be what they are not and Lie to people bother me so because of the torture by psychopath  that  i have survived.
I am a very happy person now creative and joyful since retaining an attorney to protect myself and keep her out of my life. It turns out that psychopaths have no boundaries and though i thought i expelled her from my life at 18 as late as 2012 she was still interfering in it. I was horrified as you can imagine to learn this do i got an attorney to ensure she would not enter my life again or she would be disturbing my right to a peaceful life.
I made it a point to go to san francisco where she once lived up until 2007 to obtain affidavits of firmer neighbors who stated she was an abusive person relentlessly abusing her husband-an orphan at 14 and her next perfect victim.  It was so bad someone called the police and three years after the fact of her move to new york these people were STILL discussing her psychopathic behavior
Armed with these affidavits i entered my attorneys office and drafted a letter stating that if she involve herself further in ANY way in my life we would take her to court present the evidence and her children could be taken.
I welcome any positive support in ny telling my story of torture by my adult sibling abuser, who is a psychopath.
I am learning to trust people again and i see they are not out to harm me brutally as my adult sister did.
Thank you.

[Three Roses]

I'm sorry to hear what horrible treatment you had to endure! You are welcome here

[Hazy111]

Hi Babysister,

First off

Dont want to get bogged down too much with definitions, she might have developed Borderline PD . The witch type by the sounds of it. She may well have started to act out her own self loathing on you her sister, as you were so young and defenceless.. PDs need to do this. If she has children then they will become the recipient of her wrath

Doesnt undermine your trauma of course.

This  is a description of the BPD Witch type mother.

Typical Thoughts

Unconsciously, Witches hate themselves because they grew up in an environment that "required complete submission to a hostile or sadistic caregiver" (2000). They continue the cycle by acting cruelly to others, especially those who are too weak, young, or powerless to help themselves.

Typical Emotions

They feel no remorse for nightmarish acts, showing more interest in their own well-being than concern over the way they've hurt others. The Witch's triggers include jealousy, criticism, betrayal, abandonment, feeling left out, and being ignored.

Typical Actions and Central Dilemma

Most BP parents do not physically abuse their children. Those who do probably fall into this category. However, the abuse usually occurs when other competent adults are not present. Thus, family members can live in fear while all seems well to the outside world.

Witches want power and control over others so that others do not abandon them. When someone or something triggers the Witches' abandonment fear, these BPs can become brutal and full of rage, even punishing or hurting family members who stand in their way (2000). These types of BPs are most resistant to treatment: they will not allow others to help and the source of self-loathing is very deep.

[Blackbird]

Oh my, I'm glad you were strong enough to protect yourself from her later on. That shows a lot of strenght and character!
Welcome!

[Babysister]

Wow! Thank you!! 6<3 i need to change my settings because i came back to the site thinking no one replied:( but then i saw YOU GUYS!!!!  SO glad you are here. Thank you for the welcome and also the description of the Witch about sums it up. She even had her flying monkeys, my uncles do her abuse for her while she wasn't there    hugz. Let me know how to folliw this forum bc i thought i set my email to get new threads posted but alas, no. I have to go back and read that long introduction. 😊 i admit i didn't reaD the whole thing-i was do excited to post and get it out there  <-- this emoji is hilarious! 

[Babysister]

Hello.
I was abused by my adult sister ten years my senior beginning when i was two from memory but probably earlier. She was so psychologically violent that to this day I have been unable to trust anyone. I suffer insomnia and deep grief and anger. My mother told me at 4 she was "done"  raising her kids so she basically abandoned me except when my adult sibling abuser and psychopath engaged her in abusing me too. The time my mother said that was the psychopath's my sisters worst abuse my mother could no longer deal with the monster that is my sister and do she certainly couldn't take care of a baby.
My father worked until 8pm and drank because of the dysfunctional abuse by my adult sibling abuser and mother screaming for her to behave.
My sister was born without empathy so she faked it for certain non-nuclear family members and in front of those outside the family to get attention. She played  the "good grandaughter and big sister" in front of her friends and my grandpatents and behind closed doors she did evil things to me. My father often called her off of me when she pretended to "tickle" me and i was screaming in pain.
She used to say the cruelest things to me and then tell me she was being nice to me-Crazy!

The emotional abuse was constant and insidious. There were constant comments to degrade me passive aggressive cruel things she said taunting me constantly and making fun of me while i was developing and she was fifteen to 27 years old!!! 
The reality is I was a pretty and very giving little girl whom my father favored and I was noticed and beloved by everyone in the neighborhood, her and my middle sister's friends, neighbors and she hated me for this.
She systematically took the time to denigrate me with viciousness in the form of character assasination when i was FIVE until 18 when i expelked her from my life. Then she did it behind my back.  every chance she could and every single day after school as I was a latchkey child. She called me an ugly kid, she said kids who are cute when they are little aren't when they grow up. I had a cute little nose and she relentlessly made fun of it to the point that i got body dysmorphia. She hit me every day after school terrorizing me and scaring me so that i was hypervigilent making sure no one else at school would hurt me and degrade me like she did.
She told me at five that I was responsible for my grandfather's heart attack how was i to believe anything else? My mother abandoned me she took advantage being a female psychopath of my defenslessness and love for her as my big sister.
She told me from the time I was three that I was "the bad seed".
This is what psychopaths do;they project themselves and their sick twisted minds and behavior onto the victims they torture.
Part of me believed her because "why would my big sister who tells me how good she is lie to me?" i was accepted to a modelling agency at five and they told her "don't call us we'll call you."  I modelled my whole life until a few years ago when i began writing about my travels.
This is the first time I have reached out to a forum and told the truth about my psychopathic adult sister abuser.  She is a psychopath and she harmed me in every way.
I stopped eating at six and did not grow physically for a period of ten years when we finally moved away and i got away from her. I built self-esteem all the boys noticed me.
She violated all of my boundaries making fun of all my thoughts and interests and ideas. She said only weird boys liked me. She would say "(cousin's name) moon (cousin's name) stars"  about my overweight and culturally non-attractive cousin three years younger then she would say my name and say "eww. " she consistently criticized my appearance every character trait and behavior mocking me viciously and laughing at me. SHE WAS AN ADULT AND I WAS A YOUNG CHILD.  It was a nightmare froM which i still suffer insomnia and the inability until now hopefully  to trust anyone. She was scathingly cruel and used the psychology she learned at school to harm me with her words even worse labeling  with all of these now ridiculous things i never had but she made me such a nervous child i bit my nails ground my teeth and had migraines and nosebleeds from the chronic stress of having to hide what was being done to me by an adult when i was a little girl.
One day though there appeared to be a glimmer of hope. She locked me in a room again and wouldn't open the door she had slammed  so tightly. She had to call the superintendent to come up and open it  i was friends with his son and daughter and when he came up he found hand prints and nail marks where my sister had grabbed me and he screamed at her saying"you are an adult woman she is your baby sister are you crazy?! What are you doing?!! "what is the matter with you if you Ever do this again I am calling your father!"  he took me downstairs to be with his family. I was shaking from fear. A few times i peed in my pants because of her psychopathic abuse.
She told me i was the worst and did not deserve to live.
She repeatedly beat me and degrade me treating me like a slave from age five until 14 and told me she would kill me if i told our parents.
She enlisted other family members through her mask in her abuse-two adult uncles.
Now i know thay all the anger i feel towards politicos who abuse their power and those who pretend to be what they are not and Lie to people bother me so because of the torture by psychopath  that  i have survived.
I am a very happy person now creative and joyful since retaining an attorney to protect myself and keep her out of my life. It turns out that psychopaths have no boundaries and though i thought i expelled her from my life at 18 as late as 2012 she was still interfering in it. I was horrified as you can imagine to learn this do i got an attorney to ensure she would not enter my life again or she would be disturbing my right to a peaceful life.
I made it a point to go to san francisco where she once lived up until 2007 to obtain affidavits of firmer neighbors who stated she was an abusive person relentlessly abusing her husband-an orphan at 14 and her next perfect victim.  It was so bad someone called the police and three years after the fact of her move to new york these people were STILL discussing her psychopathic behavior
Armed with these affidavits i entered my attorneys office and drafted a letter stating that if she involve herself further in ANY way in my life we would take her to court present the evidence and her children could be taken.
I welcome any positive support in ny telling my story of torture by my adult sibling abuser, who is a psychopath.
I am learning to trust people again and i see they are not out to harm me brutally as my adult sister did.
Thank you.

[Three Roses]

 

I'm so sorry you went thru such pain. You were an innocent, trusting little girl who was hurt and confused by someone who was supposed to watch over you.

I have an older sibling, 4-1/2 years older. I have a hard time saying his name, or calling him a "brother". I think of him as my parents' child, my sibling, but not as a brother.

You're very brave to be looking at your past. I've started talking in therapy about my experiences and getting some validation and valuable feedback from my therapist. I don't know where I'd be without being in therapy; I certainly wasn't getting any better.

Hugs to those little girls, yours and mine, who kept plugging along and trying to find their ways in a world that wasn't friendly.

[silentrhino]

one of my middle brothers attempted to murder me as a baby ( he is also a decade older) because he was "bored" this is funny to the rest of the family.  I mean I lived didn't I so whats there to complain about.  The tip of the underwater glacier starts right there.  Trying to reject the abuse and live some kind of normalcy has made me paranoid, dissociative and a whole crapload of other negative words. Laughing at or mocking me as a child or both was a family pastime and since I'm the youngest boy I was supposed to "man up". I never really realized he was a psychopath but I think he is the main reason being the total lack of remorse and continued abuse to this day when I have to see him (which I limit).

[Blueberry]

one of my middle brothers attempted to murder me as a baby ( he is also a decade older) because he was "bored" this is funny to the rest of the family.  I mean I lived didn't I so whats there to complain about. 

That is so terrible silentrhino! Words fail me. Your poor little baby self and your poor little child self growing up with this attitude in the family. I was ridiculed a lot in my FOO growing up, so I can understand this part of your pain. I think we've touched on that similarity before.

[silentrhino]

I feel like I have too much remorse for everyone, I feel remorseful for people if they fall and trip in the street when it has nothing to do with me, it's not normal.  my family would set me on fire and laugh about my burns.  I don't know why I'm like this and not stronger and tougher. I can't even eat meat.  Faces you know. Such a snowflake.