let the healing begin

[Hope66]

Hi SanMagic,
This is wonderful, I agree with Elphanigh - beautiful to hear that you have found a therapist who connects with you so well - what a great start. 
Hope 

[sanmagic7]

am in an ef today because of the news, puerto rico, the darvo, - couldn't help but hear because the tv was on in the other room, and i had to pass thru to get food.  i've had enough narcissistic abuse in my life - i can't take more. started crying thinking of those dear people asking for help, and having it turned on them.  i have to get some better timing so i don't hear any more of this.

[Three Roses]

earbuds & loud music.

[Sceal]

Sending you some warm thoughts tonight.
It's indeed horrible what's happening over there, no words for it really. Try to take the best care of yourself you can today.

[sanmagic7]

thanks 3roses and sceal.  i'm still here, just feel like i'm hanging on by my fingernails.  my daughter's surgery is mon. a.m., early, so i'll be going over there tomorrow nite.  3 days of caretaking - so very stressful cuz my heart is involved.  i just have to make it to be there for her.  then i can collapse.

thank heaven i've got my t appt. thurs.  i'll be a mess, i'm sure.  more crying today.  i was triple-teamed by narcissist and misogynistic madness for so long, and the madness that's going on now finally took me down.   i am now officially scared, tho i don't want to admit it.  i've been keeping that bear at bay for quite awhile, but it's out of the woods now.  i was sure before, now i don't know, i really don't know.  i'm just glad i'm near my d. 

[Elphanigh]

Want to pass on the warmest hugs and all of the healing feelings your way. I am a bit young to be a Mother Earth spirit like you, but I have been told I am great at comforting hugs and warm thoughts. You can stay wrapped in my arms as long as you want, taking comfort and shelter there during these difficult times. I come with a shoulder for tears, blankets for any purpose, and warm comforting tea/snacks of your choosing.

I adore you San, and know just how strong you have had to be. Let us all help support you right now. We will help you through this

[sanmagic7]

you brought tears of i don't know exactly what but they were good tears, el.  i am resting in your arms right now, and it is a relief.  thank you so much for making yourself available to me.  it's so appreciated. 

earth mother spirit in the making, you lovely thing.  now i'm smiling.  that feels good, too.  deep breath, tension loosening.  wow - you hit me smack dab where i needed it.  you're beautiful. 

[Elphanigh]

It is an honor to be able to be available to you. I love that you allow me to help, and nurture. Rest in my arms as long as you need, dear. Tears and smiles are both welcome, as are words or any other thing than you need to feel.

I love that I am a Mother Earth spirit in the making. I have always been hurting, but don't feel that I have enough wisdom and such yet. It made me smile to hear you call me that. I want to be as good at it as you are one day.

Glad to have hit you where you needed it. I am sitting here with you tonight, and always. Much love

[sanmagic7]

i will never forget this.  thank you.

[Elphanigh]

You're very welcome. I am glad to have given you something you won't forget. 

[Blueberry]

Hi SanMagic,
This is wonderful, I agree with Elphanigh - beautiful to hear that you have found a therapist who connects with you so well - what a great start. 

bucketfuls of it

[sanmagic7]

hope, 3roses, sceal, el, blueberry - i don't have enough words.  thank you so much for all your support.  i know wife2 and others are in there as well.  you have saved me so often, i can't even count the times anymore.

i'm just waiting now, asking for the strength needed to get me thru these next few days so i can fully be there for my darling d.  that's my focus.  you'll all be with me, my protectors, my shield, my support.  bless you all.

[Sceal]

Sending you loads of love, support and strenght from my little corner of the world.   

[sanmagic7]

my d's surgery went better than expected.  12 hr. day, so we're all beat.  i'm at her place, go home tomorrow.  looking forward to my own bed, routine, etc.  back here on sat. for my birthday, which is nice.  pizza, cake and ice cream, and a movie.  very sweet of the 'kids' to do this for me.  the big 7-0.  looking forward to it.  just gotta get thru this week.  i'm make it.

[Three Roses]

Yum! Here's wishing you a happiest of birthdays ahead of time!