Hello...

[TimePassingBy]

Hello all:  I posted in the Storm forum as well since it seemed that the two are interrelated...Middle aged male here and have allowed myself to get into what I call an imperfect storm...

In summary...raised myself in a dysfunctional mom/pop family.  Both came from their dysfunctional families.  In terms of ptsd or cptsd terms, I was abandoned or I guess left to fin for myself; but my parents would not validate this and I'm not willing to address it at this late point in father's life.  Mother deceased.

Bullied as a kid for a myriad of causes...started with being a obese kid...tried to arrest it and ended up for the most art suffering from eating disorder...all untreated.  I feel as if I was in a war, and sometimes feeling remains same. Tried to get help earlier in life and just didn't click.  Currently back with psychologist and am on medication prescribed by a psychiatrist.

Happily married with outstanding family.  Some family issues triggered what I consider full-fledged breakdown.  Seeking help again.  Just very alone inside; have a relatively high-stressed job that is very rewarding but dealing with individual personalities difficult.

My upbringing left me a perfectionist, and that causes me a tremendous amount of triggers...so I move from fight, flight, freeze, and fawn on a regular basis.    Confusing part is that I know that I'm relatively respected but I cannot get my mind and heart to align.

Like I said, I'm just looking for a WAY to move through this and get on my feet.

[mourningdove]

Welcome, TimePassingBy!

Glad you are here.

[Candid]

Some family issues triggered what I consider full-fledged breakdown. 

They have a way of doing that, don't they?

Like I said, I'm just looking for a WAY to move through this and get on my feet.

You're not alone any more, TimePassingBy. I'm glad you found us here and hope you'll get comfortable reading and posting.

[Three Roses]

You're definitely not alone! Older female, diagnosed with PTSD in my mid-50's, discovered Complex variety researching on my own - back on meds and going to therapy, again, but first time with this knowledge and outlook.

Never was able to work at the same place more than a few years at a time. Now in my early 60's and wondering why the * I waited so long to deal with all this.

Welcome aboard, and thanks for adding your voice to ours.

[Candid]

Now in my early 60's and wondering why the * I waited so long to deal with all this.

Me too. It gets harder as we get older, doesn't it?

[JamesG]

54 here, I get it, we all do

you'll get there

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