Uhm, may I ask, what's unconditional love?
For that matter, what's love? I can give a definition of the word, but it means nothing to me. There's no emotion behind it. Just total emptiness, like scorched land. I can't bring up any emotion, except maybe self hatred.
When people use it, the closest I can come to understanding what they're saying is "Oh, it's that thing that others are worthy of and I'm unworthy of. That's why it means a lot to them and nothing to me." I know what being used feels like, so I can sort of understand being loved is the same as being used, just less violently and with a win-win agenda. Mutually using each other? I bet that's not love, but it's the best I can do.
Not trying to be funny, really clueless. I'd love (no pun intended) some pointers. What does it feel like to you to be loved?