I can totally understand that it wears on your hope for humanity.

The news does have a lot of sadness in them. Too much infact. We don't get so much about the natural disasters over here, only that they are going to occur and then how bad it was that day, they it isn't mentioned anymore.
I find that I am too worn out to actually look for anything new. I got home around 18.00 yesterday, and I went to bed after I had dinner. I've been in bed for 12 hours. Partially awake, partially asleep. It's like I don't have the energy to look for something happy or interessting. I just go back to what I already know, what's easy. Even if I don't enjoy it. There's nothing new on the news, so I don't know why I keep checking it.
I love the forest, but it's not really possible at the moment to go for morning walks. It takes me several hours to actually properly wake up. To be present in the here and now, and to get my body to move. I'm full of inflammations now I've noticed, it's nothing new. But it means I've pushed my body too hard when I went to the gym and went in the forest.
My dream morning would be a cup of tea or coffee at a porch with view to a lake or the forest. And then go for a walk, and return home to make clay sculptures, before I go to some meaningful work for 3-4 hours and then I don't know. It's just a dream.
