Regulating feelings by games and watching series

[PeTe]

I've been procrastinating most of the time, latey. Playing games on my smartphone, watching series on Netflix and eating chocolate. It feels really unfulfilling, even while doing it. I do it in order to distance myself from my feelings, and not have to make hard decisions. I still see friends and do stuff in between, but it feels quite * to be regulating my feelings with some kind of addiction. I really feel I'm regulating my feelings because I'm not able to do it well by myself, and that's a big disappointment for me. The addiction part of it sort of makes me despise myself, and brings me down. I do it partly to stay alert, indirectly telling myself the world's a dangerous place, partly denying myself to wind down and just be. I would really like to feel some more self love and understanding now.

[Sceal]

I hear you. Im in the same boat

[PeTe]

It really sucks. Wish I could just snap out of it, but somehow it's not so easy... Hope you'll find a way out of it too.

[Sceal]

I hope for the same for you.

[Blueberry]

  to both of you.

I still use unhealthy ways to regulate feelings. Not all the time, but quite a bit of the time.

[Three Roses]

Big group hug!! I've had a Crap day myself and could use one.

[PeTe]

Hugs to you all 

It feels nice to think that I'm in it with you! I'd love for that feeling to become more familar...

[sanmagic7]

i'm in.



here's to finding our way out and feeling more at ease by having more peace of mind.

[DecimalRocket]

 

[Gwyon]

Yep, I am in that space too. Movies for me.

[LittleBird]

Same. Noticing this today has been stressful, heartbreaking and exhausting.

Been working towards mindfulness over the last few days. One step at a time, but want to get some grounding stuff and calm down again. It's too difficult to process alone. Thanks for reminding me  lots of positive thoughts to hold on to as well.

[melere]

I'm in the same camp. I thought I had an Internet addiction but on reading about C-PTSD, I realized how often I was turning to the Internet's endless depths of distraction in order not to sit through or work through an issue. I'd really cut down this spring but after travelling for a few months, I decided to settle down for a bit. It's been emotionally rocky and I've found myself just glued to YouTube or researching psychology material, even stuff I've already seen before, because it's calming and I guess I can't calm myself!

[BlancaLap]

OMG, this is basically me. I do play minigames and watch series a lot, and also procrastinate, it is an adicction...

[Healing Finally]

Hello everyone  - I do this too, all the time.  It's a perfect way to "maintain" in my world.  I appreciate this post.  Try not to be hard on yourself when you are doing it, as it is a coping mechanism.  Yes, it's a form of addiction, similar to when I use to heavily drink alcohol, also as a way to maintain in my world.  But I quite that thank goodness, finally.  Someday we can get past this too.

WE are fortunate to have so much great support here.   

[BlancaLap]

Yes we are