It’s unfair

[Eyessoblue]

So today I'm out of the storm
Waiting to face the norm
Coming down to earth with a bang
Yet my head is hung in shame
The bottle, my new best friend
Finally I see the end
Laying my head down to earth
My name written upon the hearth
Distraction it takes me through
Battered and feeling blue
The glass full and happy face
Taking it slowly a sad place
Emotions shuddering filtering through
Tomorrow a new day for you
Waiting and wanting both in despair
Silent wishes will take me there
That world of silence and incomplete
Waiting the distance it's time to meet
Is this the end for me
I hope, it's not time to see
Can the bottle take the pain away
Reaching out my arms  displayed
Someone can take me back
Put me on the right track?
No, that's wrong it's me who needs
To be strong to be set free
The bottle it now rules me
Two steps ahead yet ten steps back
Trying to get myself back on track
The happiness that I feel
Actually it's so unreal
It's the alcohol leading the way
And yet a big price i'll pay
Be wakened by the never ending dread
I lay my head down in bed
Wishing I could be floating free
Now back to reality and look it's me
The person crawling seeking the love
Watching the clouds from up above
Skating, ghosting mainly free
This is how I want to be
Yet on the floor I slowly weep
The secrets there for me to keep
Just plodding on getting nowhere
Oh why is my life so unfair?