Describing dissociation

[BlancaLap]

Dissociation is a strange thing.

Strange, even when you know you're doing it, but stranger still if it started when you were a baby, because you have no idea that anyone else is having a different experience of life.

It's awkward. Slippery.

What does dissociation feel like?

Like being hollow.

So there's a shell there, on the outside, and people look at the shell, and they talk to it and they act like it's really you, but you know it isn't. It's just a mask. A cover. A defence mechanism carefully tweaked over years and decades, with razor-sharp antennae out, reading the signals, ready to react, ready to duck for cover, ready to be whatever it is that they want me to be today.


I can relate in so many ways to these. I haven't only think about these myself, but I have SEEN it, I have felt it.
I just wanted to share it. Here is the link to the original post/article/web-site: https://healdove.com/mental-health/Finding-Ones-Self---Recovery-From-Dissociation

[Eyessoblue]

Good analysis. To  me, disassociation is to be part of but not here, to see but not to hear!