Elpha's new adventure

[Elphanigh]

I feel like I am making giant strides and have had several breakthroughs with healing things. A lot of hard work finally paying off,  culminating I these huge jumps.

It feels leagues different from anything I have ever felt. Like a while new world (excuse the disney reference). Feel hopeful and emergizing. I actually feel "better" and like I am capable of facing all of this. In its time of course, not going to go crazy and try to tackle everything right this moment lol.  However, the idea of doing that and going through it is  filled with hope not so much fear. I feel capable, and recognize I have never been in a better spot in my life to do this. I finally feel strong enough and deserving of it.

I didn't used to think I deserved to feel better, but I do deserve that. For once in my life I know that.

I wanted to celebrate this here, and out it somewhere I can read it when I need

[Deep Blue]

Elpha 
That's awesome.  If anyone deserves it it's you.  Thanks for sharing with us.  It's nice that we can celebrate with you 

[Elphanigh]

Thank you Hope and Deep Blue for such kind words  It feels great to celebrate with everyone, this place and all of you have been instrumental in my ability to get here.

After I posted I went to an aerial yoga class, my second one and I felt so comfortable and at home in the silks. I even managed Buddha pose! I really want to tackle the inversion for that pose next time I am in (probably next week) It was a great energy boost and just furthered me really feeling this gigantic shift. Recognizing I can feel this way is amazing. (also for anyone wondering what buddha pose looks like I attached a picture, obviously no need to look at it)

After that I went on to go practice piano. I was out towards the studio anyways, so I jumped from yoga studio to music studio. It was freeing and fed my soul. I have completely managed to leave the stress of my jobs from this morning behind. This feels like such solid progress it is beautiful. I want to be able to ingrain this feeling into my body and emotions so I never forget how it feels. I know I have many more battles to win in my recovery journey but I feel like I have won some major ones lately, so there is a full on shift in my life happening right now. There will be more of that but I want to be able to remember when it is tough that this kind of feeling and progress is possible. Maybe then I will always have hope

[Elphanigh]

Tomorrow is the day! I have everything arranged except for the final packing bits, but that is my evening project after work. I am excited for this new adventure!!!  I am even more excited to be done with this move and to have started my new job, it is just exhausting and overwhelming. There is so much good, but I have noted a lot of moments of just sensory overload. This will be so good to have finished, tonight and tomorrow are crunch time but it will be done soon.

[sanmagic7]

love you, sweetie, and so happy for you all the way around with everything.  hugs all over the place.

[Elphanigh]

Update: I am moved in completely as is my roomate. I am exhausted and spent but it is good to be here. I am going to love this part of town. I can't wait for it to be unpacked but I have truly hit my limit physically and mentally. This process has meant very little sleep and crap tons of stress.

Will work to update more when I have energy, so for now off to the porch for me

[Deep Blue]

Hugs, healing, and happiness to you in the new place!

[Elphanigh]

Thank you! I have managed to keep my symptoms to a dull roar so thinking this transition will be okay. The new place is fabulous and worth the craziness

[sanmagic7]

oh, el, how wonderful for you!  yes, i relate to the craploads of stress around moving - am going thru it myself right now.  less than 2 weeks for me. 

i hope you can take some breaks and don't think you have to have everything perfectly done right away. 

glad you're thinking it was worth it and that this will be a good place for you.  i can so relate!   love and an ems hug to you.  look at you go!

[Elphanigh]

You will be so happy to have moved once it is done. I really hope it goes very smoothly for you. 

I took a break last night, and am on break from work today. Trying to allow myself to let things look disheveled in exchange for some needed rest. It is hard to let it be though.

This place is amazing! Exposed brick, windows taller than I am, an open kitchen, and near some of my favorite places in the city. I am truly lucky to have found it

[sanmagic7]

it sounds fabulous!!!  enjoy, enjoy.  i'm so very happy for you, honey.  glad you're finding a little time to rest at least. 

yeah, i can barely wait to get outta here!   love you to bits, big hug.

[Elphanigh]

Thank you, San!!! I hope you enjoy your new space as well. I think it sounds like we are both in for a good dose of healthy changes right now.

[Deep Blue]

 
Sounds good Elpha!  I'm sending you a housewarming gift.  It's a bouquet of lilies and they smell beautiful. 
Much love to you
Deep Blue

[Elphanigh]

Deep Blue, lillies are my favorite flower!!!! I even have a tattoo of them  Those are so perfect

[Deep Blue]

For some reason that seemed like the right flower to send you...
You must have sent me a telepathic message