Elpha's new adventure

[Elphanigh]

Found out one of my dogs passed away. I am not present to see that process through, because he lives states away with my foo. However, Jack was with me as long as I can remember. He was 18 years old and was a presence I went to during the worst parts of my childhood. I just cannot imagine him actually being gone...

Hasn't truly hit me, but goodness this adds a cap to the week 

[Sceal]

So sorry to hear the passing of your pet. That can be incredible hard. 

[Blueberry]

  I'm so sorry. At 18 years, he was with you almost your whole life. I can imagine what that means. Our dog meant so much to me growing up too. 

[Elphanigh]

Thank you both 

Blueberry,  he basically had been there by entire life,  you are right. He does mean there world to me. I am glad you had that as well 

[Deep Blue]

I'm so sorry to hear that. We love them as part of the family, and when they leave us it is like losing a family member. Sending you sympathy friend and  gentle ones

[Elphanigh]

Deep blue, the gentle  are perfect. It is difficult to imagine him gone. This hurts little and adult me so much. One of the few wounds that really affects us both to the same kind of level. 

It is hard to be at work and celebrate me graduating training. I move to my official team and have a warm welcome in today, but I can't celebrate it

[sanmagic7]

sometimes some things are more important than celebrations.  take your time, be with your feelings.  i relate, as i had a dog who was my only source of stability thru some very bad times.  i relied on him just to be there, and he always was. 

holding you thru your sadness, sweet el.  love and a warm, caring, compassionate hug.

[Elphanigh]

Thank you, that hug is exactly what I need. I am settling into my new spot at work, but don't feel any of that excitement. I am just grieving today

[Deep Blue]

When my dog passed away a few years ago I was in class while working on my masters.  I had a 5k that I was running the next day and a friend was coming to run it with me.

I cried the whole way home from class.  Once I got home, I wrote a letter about all the great times we had together and about our last interaction.  It helped me to say goodbye in a healthy way to my dear friend.

My friend showed up to run the race and by then, I was cleansed.

Love you Elpha 

[Elphanigh]

That sounds like a great way to get through that, Deep Blue I will have to try that!

[Deep Blue]

I love your artwork.  Have you thought about doing a sketch or something in memory of your dog?  If you decide to, would you mind sharing it?  I think you are talented. 

[Elphanigh]

That is a great idea, Deep Blue. I have never been very good at animal pieces but it sounds like something that may be healing to try. If I do one, I would definitely share.

Honestly I need to unpack my new apartment still so I can find my art supplies..

[Deep Blue]

Hey sweetie,
I just wanted to check on you to see how your day went today? I know yesterday was tough so I just wanted to send you 

[Elphanigh]

 

All the hugs to you, dear. Thank you for checking on  me it means the world. I have kept busy with things that make me happy today. I have needed both a lot. I still ache but I feel like I can handle the grief a bit more today.  There has been a lot of added weight to my life and it has just begun to get to me.

I will go through a rollercoaster for a while I think, but I will be okay. I have some faith now that I will be.

[Elphanigh]

Been nursing a minor concussion tine late Thursday night so I haven't been here much. Mentally have been on the porch a lot to give myself a peaceful space to heal.

I feel like I can't do much processing right now as normal things take so much energy and cause my head a lot of pain.

But I do recognize some trauma responses that this concussion is causing as well. It is causing the over working response, being okay even if I am not to be safe.. then just some more panic modes because it is scary to be constantly blurry and in pain.

I am working through it but can't wait until it is better