Elpha's new adventure

[Blueberry]

I'm sorry to hear you have concussion on top of everything. I hope you feel better soon  I bet there's a pain-removal blanket on the Porch.

[Elphanigh]

Thank you, Blueberry :big hug: I am sure there is a blanket there for that, I hadn't thought of it. I envision it as a light purple, grey, and white patterned blanket that is warm and huge so i can curl up into it while sitting peacefully on the porch

[Hope67]

Hi Elpha,
Just sending you a hug too  and hoping that your concussion can be healed away by the lovely light purple, grey and white patterned blanket.  Wishing you peacefulness as you curl up into it on the Porch.
Hope 

[Elphanigh]

Thank you so much, Hope 

[sanmagic7]

dang, sweetie, a concussion?  o my goodness gracious, how terrible.  yep, i can totally see how that would exacerbate anything else that might interfere with what you're doing daily.  i'm so sorry you're in such distress.   that blanket sounds wonderful, and ems, of course, will be there to rock you gently so as not to bother your head, nor cause you to have to move unnecessarily.

sending much love, honey, and a gentle hug.  also some wildflowers - daisies are in bloom here now - in a lovely crystal vase next to you to help cheer you.  i always think of daisies as being cheery.  hope you do, too.  feel better soon, ok?

[Deep Blue]

Hey Elpha,
I just wanted to send you a  and tell you that I like your new picture 

[Elphanigh]

San, thankfully it is just a minor concussion. I have, including this one, had 7 concussion in my life time. I get them much easier now than I did because I have had so many. Sadly my kitten was the cause of it, she is in heat and I can't even sleep in my own room to recover... *sigh* I love her but cats in heat are more difficult than I knew, and she got it just in time to ruin the appointment for her I had..

Anyways minor concussion and I have had them so I know how to help them heal. It is harder because I am now an adult and have to hold myself to a high level of functioning than I did with any other concussion. Work is really painful at times but I have to do it. My eyes hate having to watch screens for that long, and my ears can't quite handle the multiple incoming noises right now. Kind of want to disappear at times 

The blanket is wonderful, as is the remind of ems. I tend to forget her when I need her most. The gentle rocking is a wonderful image, hopefully it will bring some much needed sleep and peace. I feel like I am working so much harder just to do basic things so peace is hard to come by. I will stay in the comforting space tonight

The daises are beautiful  They make me think of cheer and joy as well. They are a very happy flower. Sending love and a gentle hug right back. I will feel better soon, I promise <3 Minor concussions take about two weeks to fully go away but every day gets a bit better, and I am fairly well functioning at only 5 days.



Deep Blue, sending a hug back  Glad you enjoy it, I got an instant sense of calm when I looked at it. I could help but share that in some way

[sanmagic7]

i'm glad it's minor, but sad to hear that you've had so many of them in your life.  i had one, it lasted 2 mos., was most disconcerting as it interfered with being able to concentrate at work, and i kept forgetting things.  i'm just happy that it's beginning to go away already.  hopefully it won't take the entire 2 weeks.

similarly, i forget ems when i need her most as well.  you'd think it would be somewhat automatic by this point, but it really isn't.  i'm thinking of taking a walk this morning, and bringing her with me just to concentrate on what it means and how it feels.  i want to embrace her for a bit, wrap myself within such a spirit, feel it fully.  maybe it'll help this become a more natural thing for me.  i hope so.

keep healing, sweetie, and just do the best you can.  love you muchly, always, and sending a hug full of healing, peace, and clarity.

[Elphanigh]

It is hard to have had so many in my life, but this one is thankfully dissipating quicker. I have had the 2 month long ones and they are awful. I am sorry you have experienced that. My focus at work is definitely suffering this week but I am improving everyday.

Ems would make a great walking companion. I hope that goes well today  I iight try that after work tonight, depending on how hot it is. My head doesn't handle the heat as well right now.

Will heal the best I can. I have been fighting off horrific nightmares the last two nights. Hoping they will pass and make it easier

[Elphanigh]

Feeling the exhaustion a lot today... between concussion, nightmares, and a funeral today I am just wiped. My roomate and I are doing fast food for dinner tonight which is not our usual. I was just getting asked by coworkers if I had lost weight and was excited for it, but this is necessary or we won't truly cook...


Tw, violence


My nightmares have been violent again. One of them was a dystopian type where I was a child in essentially a war training camp. They held training that required us to kill others and survive for a certain amount of time. It was compelte chaos of tons of childern from like 5 to 12 ran around trying to survive and using whatever weapons were around. Think like houseold items and such because these occured on a ranch like thing with houses we could break into etc..  i woke after witnessing way too much and after having killed a kid with a small ice scrapper...

It was awful. I am not a violent person but the last round of dreams I had included killing people too... I don't get it 

[sanmagic7]

i don't get it, either, sweetie, unless it's your brain rearranging itself from the concussion.  just sorry to hear you're experiencing these - they suck.

not surprised to hear that you're exhausted.  sounds like fast food fits the bill at this time.  you'll get back to your healthier routine eventually.  i'm going thru some of the same with this move - just eating what i can get my hands on.  it'll pass, of that i have no doubt.  hang tough, my dear, and i hope those nightmares leave you alone real soon.   love and more, always.

[Elphanigh]

Sadly. I can't blame the violent nightmares fully on the concussion. I have honestly had ones that are more violent/horrific. The concussion might be causing them to occur but the content isn't new for me :/

We will both get back to healthier habits soon.  Will just take us some time as it seems life is rather turbulent for us both right now.

Love and healing energy your way

[Deep Blue]

Hey Elpha,
It's my understanding (from a dream analysis perspective) that death dreams are a good thing.  They can be VERY scary for sure, but can represent the end of a behavior or way of thinking.  I had one recently that indicated, to me, that I had survived the urge to SH.  I killed the urge so to speak.

to you hoping that maybe there is some positive meaning behind the nightmares.

Much love
Deep Blue

[Elphanigh]

Deep Blue, that insight truly helps. I hate being the one doing the killing in my dreams... it is hard for me to watch, especially when it is me in my like ten year old self. I will think on what you said, it is possible it is something like that as I am working so hard to change and discard so many old habits and such.

thank you for some light in all of this

[Deep Blue]

I found this interpretation on an ice pick:
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Ice Pick
To see an ice pick in your dream represents suppression of your cold feelings.

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Hopefully this helps too