I don't wanna go back...

[LittleBirdy]

The semester is ending and I have to go back home for the summer. I dont want to go in the slightest. My dad is abusive and my mom is neurotic. It is such a toxic environment but I have no where else to go...I can't afford to stay at college for the summer it would be stupidly expensive as would anywhere else. I feel like a child who has no control over where I go. My bf keeps saying I need to stop being so negative but I dont know how not to be when I know that in 24 hours I'll be stuck living there for three months. I feel like it's even worst now because after being away from my parents house for a few months I have begun to see just how toxic the environment is. And now I'm forced to go back. I'm gonna try and stay as busy as possible but still.

[Deep Blue]

Littlebirdy,
I'm so sorry.  Maybe you can live with a friend over the summer? Maybe you can get a job so you don't have to stay home much?  Is there any way you could get a job on campus? Just some suggestions.

[LittleBirdy]

Littlebirdy,
I'm so sorry.  Maybe you can live with a friend over the summer? Maybe you can get a job so you don't have to stay home much?  Is there any way you could get a job on campus? Just some suggestions.

I am in the works of getting two jobs. See, because of my situation at home I had a habit of putting all of my effort into maintaining toxic relationships without even realizing it. I am trying to strengthen the friendships that are healthy but basically what I am saying is I wouldn't feel comfortable even asking them. The deadlines to apply for jobs on campus are gone because I wanted to return to the job I love doing as it will be my last opportunity to be there . I have places to go for a night or two but nowhere that I could stay all summer.