Wattlebirds journal

[Wattlebird]

 
I'm finally home in my own bed and loving it, I was in hospital for 3 weeks but I've come out feeling a lot better than previous shorter visits, so it was worth it, what a horrid year it's been, I'm looking forward to a fresh start in the new year. I'm going to stay with my daughters and son for a week at each place over Christmas which will be a good escape from here for a while, hopefully the house sells in that time and I can move into a new place without the triggers I have here.
I've got a few appointments tomorrow and Thursday and I'm off to the city Friday .
Thank you so much for your support everyone it helped me thru
Wb

[Snowdrop]

Welcome home, Wattlebird.

[Hope67]

Hi Wattlebird,
Welcome home, and lovely that you enjoyed sleeping back in your own bed.

Hope 

[Wattlebird]

Hi all,
Thanks for the welcome home, I'm at my d1 place, it took a while to get here as there are major bushfires all over and many many roads are closed, I got here finally and we are well away from the fires now thankfully, my therapist was discussing giving me some DBT work this coming year, so I've been reading a book about it, my d2 did a group therapy dbt last year and she is defitely coping better, so I'm going to try focusing on that for now.
Happy holidays and stay safe this season
X wb

[Not Alone]

Welcome home. I hope you have a peaceful and restful time with your children.

[Wattlebird]

Well I'm home and smack bang in the path of a fire said to hit here on Saturday - the roads are already blocked every direction, at least I have power and telecommunications now it was down for 2 days and expected to go down again, anxiety is up and down.
The place is crazy - I'm just trying to manage my mental health - just 2 weeks out of hospital and I'm facing this new test - it's just so wonderful to have power and inet again at least I can communicate with people again
Xo wb

[Snowdrop]

That would terrify me! Stay safe, Wattlebird.

[Not Alone]

Scary. Keep safe.

[woodsgnome]

  ... for strength and safety.

[Hope67]

Dear Wattlebird,  I hope you are able to stay safe, and I wish you much strength to endure this.   I am glad you have power and telecommunications now,  and I hope that will continue and you'll be ok
Hope 

[Wattlebird]

Thanks for the support,
I'm lying I bed trying to sleep, tomorrow is meant to be horrendous 42deg c strong winds coming directly towards us from the fire front which is 60 km wide and not far away its supposed to hit here around lunch time - so I'm a nervous wreck and I seriously doubt I'll b able to sleep - I doubled my meds but don't think it's helping much. 
We will lose communications so I'll update you as soon as I can get back online, the devestation here is massive, the trauma in the area is going to have huge long term effects and they are saying the worst is still to come, our small community is going to shelter at the beach or in the water if necessary - were as prepared as can be so wish us luck - don't know how I'll cope with my social anxiety - with the whole community together in a highly stressful situation  - I just want some sleep to help me cope.
Thanks for listening to my ranting I just needed to vent off some anxiety
Wb

[Snowdrop]

Good luck. I can't begin to imagine what this must be like. Look after yourself as best you can and stay safe.

[Hope67]

Good luck.  Thinking of you.  Stay safe and I wish you strength and hope you managed to get some sleep last night.   

[Not Alone]

Praying for your emotional and physical safety.

[Wattlebird]

Thanks everyone
We are safe, the fires turned and missed us, but we haven't escaped yet, there is fire in every direction and roads are cut so we will be lucky to entirely escape before this is through, we are well stocked for food and water though and in no immediate danger, my d1 is here and can't get home, her boss has been great though letting her use her work vehicle to transport down supplies for us knowing she may not be able to return- I'm just grateful she is here it's keeping me sane having her, it's absolutely a horrendous situation here in Australia there are people losing houses and lives all over, we have no access to fuel or food though the army is starting to escort food down, there are people camping through out the bigger towns, it looks like a refugee camp, we are fortunate to be by the beach at least we have the ocean to jump into, which many many hundreds have done to save there lives I've seen masses of cars drive straight into a lake to save there lives and families, there are towns that have lost the majority of there shops and houses, it's just mind blowing absolutely mind blowing, I'm feeling quit posative today though being free of danger for a couple of days thanks for letting me vent on a non cptsd subject although maybe it is, it's been a quite traumatising experience,
Thanks wb